Do you ever get totally livid at the fact that you can’t break your own selfishness?? I mean... what the heck! My own will frustrates me to no end. It’s somewhat laughable because… I get a bad attitude whenever my will has taken 2nd priority to another’s will; then, when I realize my selfishness and [un]Christ-likeness, I get a bad attitude at my stupid, idiotic, ugly, sinful, self-serving nature! I know, I know, don’t be too hard on yourself, Nate, Right? Look…I know that we are all like this in a sense, right?
Right?!
If it is only me then I guess I really have a problem. Well…anyways, sometimes I just get tired of the fight, you know- the endless battle to tear away the things (sin) that make me/us so ugly. Thank God… that God can see through those things; through the “ugliness”. Thank god that he was willing to take the form of a man and sacrifice his Son in order to make that possible. But…you know… even though God forgives… and can see Christ’s righteousness in me… It still doesn’t take away my desire to honor Him, to be more like Him, to model my wonderful, perfect, good, loving, serving, gracious, just, willing to go to the death for his love, God. He is worthy…and I love Him… and I hate any desire that is at enmity with His perfect Kingdom.
